The Slump

I guess not all the blog postings can be happy, exciting, funny, etc. I'm in a slump. It's getting a little depressing right now. Work is getting tedious, but it's also really challenging at the same time. I guess I thought all the kids would be exceptionally bright and pick up on concepts quickly, but this is not the case. So many of them are really lazy, and it's really frustrating. When they don't do well on something, it comes right back on me. Demands are piling on, such as writing assessments, math assessments, reading inventories (which take about 30 minutes each), workshops, meetings, more meetings, and the list goes on. Besides all that, I don't really enjoy the company of many of my co-workers. All day I'm surrounded by this group of girls who are all very cliquey, and not overly friendly to this somewhat moody and frustrated 4th Grade teacher.

Top it off with the fact that now there are supposedly rumors and gossip going on about me and my sometimes slighly erratic behavior, which is traditional fare if you've been around me at any given party. It's like the people here have nothing else to talk about, and they really don't, so they make things up and exaggerate. I guess the honeymoon period is officially over.

TCK and Stockton are sounding better and better. It was really nice to have a core group of friends around, and I guess I thought I'd make a ton while here, but it isn't looking like that's the case. People tell me, "Hang in there, it'll get better." That's so easy to say. Maybe it's just the timing of the whole situation, possibly the two month mark is notorious for this kind of thing, I don't know, but right now it really sucks!